Play Pretend

I've been looking for some peace
For some happiness
But the pain is all I really comprehend
I Hit a wall
Thought it'd fall
I just can't pretend
That I didn't think about it til the very end

But that's okay cuz I'll just do this again
I'm all talk
I can't get over the things I'm convinced are my fault
It's a curse that I just can't reverse
But that's okay I'd rather live with pain
Than live in life in vain

Fade out fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing

Think back I was over the fence
But I froze
Regret all the choices I made
But I know
How I act
Lately feels kinda whack
But that doesn't just excuse
The damage that I produce

I always thought that this couldn't be me
Now I lost
Everything that's feels important to me
At what cost
In the end
I just tripped up again
Now I'm playing pretend
I'm playing pretend to agree