I Don't Really Care

I'm living fast
I won't fight my past
So I can find a way to pull myself up
out of this hell
I built for myself
It's hard to believe I know
But that's the fantasy
I filled up with fallacy
I don't think it's right for me
To force things selfishly
I know all along
I was busy focused on
How I was wronged
Instead of fixing issues I run
I don't really care
Where I go from here
Just get me out of this mess
Get me out of my head
Cuz I felt
Weighed down
By doubt
Alway question how
I don't belong
Where did I go wrong
I don't really wanna see
The darkest parts of me
Shine some light into my life
And let it breathe
I'm sinking lower and lower and lower again
I'm sinking down to the bottom
Right where I began
In the back of my head
I always try to make sense
Of all the answers that I find
From searching deep down within