B3ND_BUDGE

I've been out of touch
Losing feeling but the pain I used as my crutch
There's nothing left inside my head like there ever was
There's a reason I won't bend I won't ever budge

I think back honestly
On every time I didn't live my life with honesty
Cuz that's not who I want to be
Cuz I don't want to face life hostilely
But that's hard when I live constantly
In denial bout the lies that I hide in me
Is this all my in head
Just made up again

I'll just bury all my doubts deep underground
Make something from nothing
I'll always fixate on
I keep running to the past to fix myself
Find nothing to help me
I'm always searching wrong
Too many times
I didn't know that I was on the edge
Of falling back
Into old habits I regret
I'll just bury all my doubts deep underground
Make something from nothing
I'll always fixate on

So did I do enough
With all the time I spent
I've been giving up
Or was this all for nothing
Pathetic bluffing
Cuz I just think its only right that I live for something

I can't shake it off
Every time I think about it I just pay the cost
I can't help but feel more lost
Every time I take a step I'm tripping over lust
But it's hard when I keep losing trust
In myself now I keep on living in a rut
Its all my in head
Just made up again