sobering thoughts

Hm
Aye
I think I gotta reflect (yeah)
Yeah, huh
I think I gotta reflect
I was hurting and that led to having two people wrecked
All it took was one day to lose everybody's respect
Ironic when you think this was the only one left
Alcohol in my head, honestly what did I expect?
This ain't teenage fun, it's high school drama at best
I thought about myself, not how my actions affect
Everyone around me, I'm a hormonal mess
I know I wasn't correct
But I'm not the only one at fault
But that can't be an excuse to not own up and go unchecked
At least all the fake friends defect
Fucking up will make you see who's really got you, correct
I was always the victim by circumstance
But this time I decided I should take a different stance
I apologize to who deserves an apology
But people who love conflict
Man they're quick to put the fault on me
They love fights
But when it's them, they quickly bounce and leave
Some girl tells me I was screaming
That just doesn't sound like me
Still, I'll give her the benefit of the doubt
So I ask everybody if it's true, it turns out
This bitch was just making up blame
Same bitch that told homie he should punch me, insane
I was ready but respect him for not doing so
My main thing is how could you forgive her
Like she wouldn't do the same
Years later, I'd hear things that prove my point
But that's besides the point
I'm so drunk that I'm breaking the fourth wall, the timeline disjoint
Feels like a fever dream the way these thoughts are coursing
I put my friends sober the way they worried, I'm sorry
I guess if there's a lesson here for me
That this night chose to give me, I'm in no state to absorb it
And my school ending in a night of pain and it's blurry
Kinda fitting but at least it's gonna make a good story
Yeah

And that's the story
Where were you, Kate?
Haha, I was just dancing
Yeah, I guess you were
Did you have fun?
Yeah, it was a great prom
Okay good, at least I didn't ruin your night
Stop. Okay, you shouldn't have gotten with that girl
But you didn't really bother anyone tonight
Really?
Yeah! It was kinda funny. Maybe a little bit embarrassing...
Though it was scary to see you almost getting punched
Hehe, yeah...
But it's not like you chose today to have the whole drama... right?
Of course not. Who comes clean at a prom?
I swear... I'm gonna miss my friends, you included, of course... but I'm kinda glad school's over
Wha-- What do you mean, are you not going to the same schools?
Right. I guess I never told you, I'm sorry. I'm moving away this summer
What?
Yeah
You idiot. You could've told me this sooner, I'm gonna miss you
You're right. And I'm going to miss you too. But I have your number, we'll talk, go out...
Not to drink
heh, no, def-- heh
Definitely not to drink
Look, if we go like a month or something without talking you come to my house and punch me
Like I just did?
No, c'mon, like a real punch
Li-- Like the guy was about to give me
Hahah, deal
I'm gonna practice, you know?
I'll make you my human punching bag
Yeah... I'm starting to regret this already.
Well too bad, you can't go back on it now
Hahaha
Hehehe

I'll miss Lisbon. But no matter where I go...