That Was Me

You know that was me, stayin' up, puttin' work in
Makin' sure my family was good, we were hurtin'
Dad lost his job, bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind, I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came through when it mattered
You know that was me turnin' loss into laughter
Divvy up the cash, makin' sure we all eat
Bring us all together, makin' sure we all speak

Wasn't gettin' sleep, I was focused on the prize
Heavy smokin' weed, drinkin' liquor every night
The girl I was in love with wasn't just for me
I tried to show her things she didn't wanna see
My parents were embarrassed, hated seein' them like that
They carried me this far, it's time I put 'em on my back
My songs were breaking through, my car was breaking down
Yeah, the pressure grew, I had to make it now

The awkward conversations and the fights increased
The days were chaotic, so the nights were my peace
I'm locked in like whoa-oh
Whoa (whoa)

You know that was me, stayin' up, puttin' work in
Makin' sure my family was good, we were hurtin'
Dad lost his job, bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind, I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came through when it mattered
You know that was me turnin' loss into laughter
Divvy up the cash, makin' sure we all eat
Bring us all together, makin' sure we all speak

Tried to keep the peace, I was hiding how I felt
Only twenty-three, takin' care of things myself
Payin' all the bills, everyone was broke
All the while still, tryna be the goat
I'm lonely all the time, but I've always held my tongue
It's been six years since I wasp a brother or a son
My father lost his voice, he said money speaks
He didn't have a choice, had to come to me

The awkward conversations and the fights increased
The days were chaotic, so the nights were my peace
I'm locked in like whoa-oh
Whoa (whoa)

You know that was me, stayin' up, puttin' work in
Makin' sure my family was good, we were hurtin'
Dad lost his job, bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind, I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came through when it mattered
You know that was me turnin' loss into laughter
Divvy up the cash, makin' sure we all eat
Bring us all together, makin' sure we all speak

Cut off everybody I ain't got no time to party (yeah)
Tryna get these fans and build a motherfuckin' army (yeah)
'Cause no one's gonna save us, but me, so I got us (I do)
I said that I would I gotta keep my promise (yeah)
Missed out on a lot, yeah, my twenties were a blur (yeah)
My mind was always focused on the future, that's for sure
But I'd sacrifice it again and again (I would)
To make sure my fam doesn't go thru that again (for real)

Oh, I've been on my own, my own (oh)
Oh, I been on my own, my own (oh)

You know that was me, stayin' up, puttin' work in
Makin' sure my family was good, we were hurtin'
Dad lost his job, bank tried to take the house
Mom lost her mind, I was tryna make it out
You know that was me who came through when it mattered
You know that was me turnin' loss into laughter
Divvy up the cash, makin' sure we all eat
Bring us all together, makin' sure we all speak