Promise
[Hook: MayDay]
It’s a promise I made
It’s one I’ll always keep
I’ll be there for the ones I love
I’ll be there till I can still breathe
[Verse 1: MayDay]
We could be miles away like oceans
We could be drowning in old moments
But all our memories are devoted
To that time we swore we'd grow up
And I knew I made promises
But never kept any of them
I swear it's my conscience
Been messing with me for so many years
That I begin to believe my own lies
And it's sad when I have to look my daughter in the eye
Tell her that dad's so crazy that he had to do some time
And while you try to win all these custody battles
Just know that she's my daughter too
That she needs a father
Someone to guide her through
The decisions that she’s too afraid to make
And I never did anything
But try to provide for her
And I'm telling you to
Do this for the sake of our daughter
Don't leave the mess we created
For her to breathe in every day
I blame myself for our misery
But I promise I've been trying
You know I've been sober for 7 years
At least I got that covered
And I've been busy making money
And doing what I need to do
You keep wanting to bring up the past
Makes me feel like I'm being interrogated
Why can't you just accept what I did
And the fact that you loved me
Yeah go ahead and admit it cause you did
Even though I was a piece of shit
You fell for me hard
Just like I fell for you too
That first night I met you
I remember I had changed somehow
You see before I was just busy
Getting any pussy on the street
I wasn't looking for commitment
I was running away from all the emotions
But you were the one thing I needed
The first person I really got to know
The one I could picture myself growing old with
It's that sappy shit that hit me
And then once 3 years passed
Suddenly you wanted to leave me
We were arguing every night
There wasn't a moment
Where the neighbors didn't hear a fight
We cussed each other out so bad
That it was hard to look back
I still remember how deadly your tongue can be
I rather you'd hit me
Than listen to the things that you say
It's that type of poison
That controls someone and lures them
Into a circle of pain but
[Hook: MayDay]
It’s a promise I made
It’s one I’ll always keep
I’ll be there for the ones I love
I’ll be there till I can still breathe
[Verse 2: MayDay]
Constant emotions pouring out on the table
Did you ever tell the judge
You were back on the bottle
That you hide them underneath your bed
And pretend like you’re still sober
I guess you were always the angel
And I was somehow the devil
If I did something wrong you let everyone know
But because of our daughter
I kept your secrets in the back of my throat
All of your manipulation
And this is the first time I'm laying all this out
If my heart doesn't clean up
Then how can I move on from what you've done
At least I own up to what I do
At least I fight every day
But you give up on us so easily
I begin to wonder if it was all just a game
Maybe all along it was one sided
And you only cared about yourself
Maybe this isn't the beginning of a new chapter
But the beginning of Hell
Except then you were wearing a mask
So that no one could tell
You have it all now and you're still tearing me apart
What all do I have left
What else is there left for you to touch
I keep praying that Lily won't end up like us
That she'd find a good path
One that would offer her
What she should have always had
That love and support
That guidance and drive
I knew from the moment she was born
She was gonna be something amazing
She had this look in her eyes
When she was just a baby
This type of look as if she's telling the world that she's ready
To fight anything that stands in her way
And choose a healthy path one day
I hope that no matter what happens
She'll be able to talk to her parents
I hope she grows up to be
Everything that she's ever dreamed
[Hook: MayDay]
It’s a promise I made
It’s one I’ll always keep
I’ll be there for the ones I love
I’ll be there till I can still breathe