I’m Trying [Not Friends]

London 2020 boy and a girl broke up, yeah
It's two a penny
And I been tryna make a big step forward
Saw you, it was awkward
Nothing like I thought would happen happened
I was so in love
And that don't come off in the wash
Kinda hope it does, though
'Cause you're seeing someone pretty and
I hate her guts so I'll be telling you she's
Nice on the bus home
We were bad but we're gonna be good
It didn't work like I thought it would
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
And you swore you would do better this time
Well, I might be bitter and twisted
And broken and petty and lying
But at least I'm trying
(At least I'm trying) at least I'm trying

Three shots, lemon drops
One for being lost and alone
In your early twenties
One for being obsessed with someone
Who puts you secondary
One for calling guys with
Guitars in a cemetery just me? Okay
If I'm being frank
I want a "sorry" but I'll
Settle for a handshake
'Cause I'm the baby but I'm
Gonna be the bigger man, babe
So many blank slates I could
Build a whole fucking house

We were bad but we're gonna be good
It didn't work like I thought it would
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
And you swore you would do better this time
Well, I might be bitter and twisted
And broken and petty and lying
But at least I'm trying at least I'm trying
Not friends, no, we're somewhere in between
'Cause you're awful and I miss you and
I killed you in my dream
Last night, even then you didn't care
It's a low when even in my dreams
You still don't want me there
Got friends, got at least a healthy five
Yeah, some people think I'm funny, baby
Don't look so surprised
We think that your girlfriend is a bore
But we're nice to her in public
Cause we're grown up and mature not friends
'Cause when I asked you on the train why you
Hurt me and you couldn't
Really actually explain
I cried, then I told you it was cool
God, you haven't changed at all!

We were bad but we're gonna be good
It didn't work like I thought it would
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
And you swore you would do better this time
Well, I might be bitter and twisted
And broken and petty and lying
And you might be awful like
All of the time, yeah, it's almost inspiring
But at least I'm trying at least I'm trying
At least I'm trying