Just Kidding

I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Aha, I'm just kidding!

I packaged up my pain today
I wrapped the box in cellophane
It's clear so I can see inside
Now watch the worst of me escape

But I like your apartment
I like how your hair smells
It buries all my problems
Until I forget the details
That's all I can talk about without hurting your feelings
So check out all the love I get is fake
And doesn't happen at all
It doesn't happen at a-all, all

I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Aha, I'm just kidding!

I buried all my pain today (no)
Shallow, not too far away (not far)
If you looked then you could see inside (not far)
And watch the worst of me escape
Plan a, plan b
I'm numb but still I'm hurting
Mental, physical, a-cyclical, but what they hand me
Plan c, plan d
You can't kill what you can't see
I'll take on every little thing you hand me

But I like your apartment
I like how your hair smells
It buries all my problems
Until I forget the details
That's all I can talk about without hurting your feelings
So check out all the love I get is fake
And doesn't happen at all
It doesn't happen at a-all, all

I wish I was dead sometimes
So I wouldn't have to check my phone
I wish I was dead sometimes
So I could spend a day alone
And not feel like everybody hates me
Making plans on another planet daily, lately
I wish I was dead sometimes
Aha, I'm just kidding!

I'm just joking! It's funny
Nah, nah
Not far away, yeah, yeah

And repeat