Lost

[Verse]
Eyes like the ocean, so hypnotizin'
When she left, that was a moment of silence
The love that she showed me was real, it was priceless
I lost it all, now I feel like I’m lifeless
I knew someday that I’d probably lose her
Cuz why in the fuck would she stay with a loser?
If I ain’t got her, what’s the point of a future?
We met on the internet, I can’t compute her
She left my head spinnin’, I still don’t get it
I thought what wе had was truly poetic
Now it’s too late, I can’t change my pеrspective
I stay up late wide awake with depression
Everything seems to be triggerin’ flashbacks
I don’t know how I could ever move past that
We’re not conventional people, we’re abstract
I can’t accept that I messed up my last chance
Everyone’s better off stayin' away from me
Y’all should forget me, yeah, don’t even pray for me
Can’t find a purpose, I’m wanderin' aimlessly
I’ll never have any sense of complacency
It’s hard to live but it’s easy to die
And sometimes I think I should give in in my mind
I spend way too much time, dressin' up lies
I was stupid to think that she would be my bride
She did what’s best for her, she dodged a bullet
I’m empty, she wants to live life to the fullest
There’s way too much weight on my brain, I can’t pull it
She was my home but now that place is ruined
I’ll never change, I’m romantic and passionate
My sense of love is enhanced, I can’t manage it
Call me affectionate, call me inadequate
Call me whatever you want, I’ma answer it
When I make music, I reopen wounds
It takes a toll on me, I play it cool
But I know it’ll catch up, I’m already doomed
I’ma die alone on the dark side of the moon
I’m lost again, I guess the cycle continues
Time pass but it didn’t resolve any issues
An endless illusion is what I slipped into
I’m blinded, my eyes only see her, I miss you
Broken into pieces, can’t seem to find any reason
To fight on and keep on breathin’, I’ll try but I’ll be defeated
My energy’s low depleted, can’t stand the way that I’m treated
I’d rather just be deleted, I’ll never feel like I’m needed
I’m happiest when I’m dreamin', I’m silent inside, I’m screamin'
Disguised in my scars, I’m bleedin', I’m someone she can’t believe in
Discreet, I’ve been keepin' secrets, appearances are deceivin'
You never know what you’re seein', I’m hurtin', I’m still not healin'