Dear Rachel

[Verse]
(Just another)
Today, I was sitting at the pier waiting for the exact time of a reservation
I remember everything but not the images, only the residuals
(Day on the verge)
Everything is okay and the passage of time is less of a slice out of my flesh than before
(Just another)
I feel so connected to my life, but it wasn't me, I wasn't there, I wasn't conscious
(Day on the verge)
There is this deeply pained version of myself waiting for any open opportunity to hop over the rails and into terminal danger
I always want to run
(Submerge my heart)
I do not know towards what, but I know it's away from myself
I wasted so many nights thinking, "This one might be the one"
(I don't want it now)
Every night passed and none of them were the hopes I had placed on them
The last two weeks of my life were like entering and exiting the rabbit hole
Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been
(Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?)
Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been
(I don't think anyone can feel my gaze)
Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been
(Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?)
Of course I feel lost, there's nothing else I've ever been
(I don't think anyone can feel my gaze)

[Outro]
(Just another)
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze
(Day on the verge)
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze
(Submerge my heart)
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze
(I don't want it now)
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze
Tell me, am I fucking up in the right way?
I don't think anyone can feel my gaze