Only Look Outside, When It Rains

Only look outside when it rains
It's three or four or five but I'm wide awake
Only look outside when it rains
I say I'm okay even though I'm not okay
Only look outside when it rains
Use me, use me, then throw me away
Only look outside when it rains
Just so I can feel a damn thing

Only look outside when it rains
I can't lose, there's just too much at stake
Only feel alive 'cause of pain
I got visions of my going insane, I can't catch a break
Only got friends when it pays
Fuck a fan, only got notes if I stay
When I try so hard to keep me sane
Tough job to always keep an eye out for the snakes

And I laugh from time to time, just to make it seem like I'm alright
And I ride for mine, for mine it's the only thing keeping alive

Only look outside when it rains
It's three or four or five but I'm wide awake
Only look outside when it rains
I say I'm okay even though I'm not okay
Only look outside when it rains
Use me, use me, then throw me away
Only look outside when it rains
Just so I can feel a damn thing

Only look outside when it rains
I can't lose, there's just too much at stake
Only feel alive 'cause of pain
I got visions of my going insane, I can't catch a break
Only got friends when it pays
Fuck a fan, only got notes if I stay
When I try so hard to keep me sane
Tough job to always keep an eye out for the snakes

And I laugh from time to time, just to make it seem like I'm alright
And I ride for mine, for mine it's the only thing keeping alive