Desperation

Hook:
Greatly depreciated feelings emaciated
In dark smoke the hallucinations made me go broke i
Wanted to solve my problems instead I've lost all hope

Verse:
Just taking a minute to breath the trees fallen down
The bears are getting tranquilized and finalized
Lost the dreams of a family you got re-engaged
And I've had to disengage wage bad agreements
With family and friends on a similar wage leaving me rage
I've never felt more a lone I cannot relate with many as many
Haven't experienced homelessness hopelessness and loss of senses
To violence and ignorance in a long scope its getting harder
And farther into the word cope wonder how
My father dealt with this being a man is the fucking worst
When you can't give up people questioning my ethics and morals
And there's nothing you can do to better yourself then to listen to your own thoughts the devils been gone and so has
God both have abandoned me cause in a past life
My ancestors must have killed job I can handle work
Like its nothing and I get paid most the anger is inside
I hated myself in school I thought I would sell dope but
Instead I climbed up a rope of my own being in denial
Of everything around me I broke out of violence I broke
Out of silence ever since I was 17 I bought my son and
My ex clothes I bought boxes of toys for my boy gave
Him joy we had a great thing going I threatened to kill
Cody on many occasion your mom didn't know me so
She saw me as an enemy she had no idea bout how
Deep our past was I made you a fuxing ring you cheat
Acts of desperation separation of anger and sadness lost senses of how to feel love and compassion
Feel sad mentioning my babysitters heathers death
Or my grandpa franks end up missing who they were but ultimately have to move forward and continue my life showing remorse over them to gain my mentality a new ideology to think of progression matters more then stress its why I hate getting angry even if it is a gift
Rest in peace to rick he died in pocompton friend me
And my moms
This was surprising and shocking I act hard but my
Shells always cracked like a skull in pocompton lonely
And compressed miss the feeling of a woman's touch
On my chest when I was sixteen I was desperate for a
Complex love interest now I just regret it the giving up
Of everything for one person who treats you with a sexist
Banner to wave makes you feel like a waste of time feel
Like I should put a lot more effort in comfort and feeling
What is mine
What is mine don't worry I never forget my red brothers
And sisters overlooked a bunch the blacks always get a
Drumline 808 natives plus thousands more went through equally wrong equations its not just black lives that matter gotta
Follow through the ladder many holes were etched out
Into this wood fux a canoe bitch homicide in canada is
Real natives are the killers not black brothers talk about it
Fucking yellow belly sap sucking triple k clowns I throw
Up my hand signs I'm irish mixed say I'm confused bout
My heritage naw I'm also polish that means
I'm jewish I never mention it cause I don't practice the
Religion
That's a difference between deference and decision
Racism and polarizing morals better stop drawing circles
Boys and girls families not the problem its your ultimate
Decision you decide live in a lie live in pride either way if
You ever end up in court you better have a good alibi one
Hundred and fifty dollars
For a lawyer he ain't gonna be johnny depp
He gonna be tommy sawyer who worked for
Years behind a drugstore counter before entering college