When I'm Gone

I'm so far from everything I love
and I'm guilty for all I've done
am I cancer like a fucking disease
I've become everything I never thought I'd be I've been wasted burned all my dreams
now these ashes are all I see
from the bottle and the gasoline
it's too late I'm addicted to this misery
You know

Take away this loaded gun
forgive me for the wrong I've done
tell my mother that I'm sorry
I don't want to live this way
I don't want to dig my grave in the end
will I be forgiven when I'm gone

I'm helpless a stranger inside
I feel reckless but I ain't ready to die
these voices screaming in my head
keep telling me that I should be dead
my sorrows they come on done
And tomorrow it may never come
I've gotta fix this I need a remedy
before it's over before it's too late for me

Take away this loaded gun
forgive me for the wrong I've done
tell my mother that I'm sorry
I don't want to live this way
I don't want to dig my grave in the end
will I be forgiven
when I'm gone