life? ... lol

I take it back
I reacted with my heart
I wanna be there
With you in the back of my car
You can't pray with me for long
I was such a fool, hanging on
You smell just like his cologne
The cheapest thrills keep you going

I don't know where you stand with me
But I know I can't stand to be without you
Can't remember what it was like before
Gave you everything you wanted, what you crying for?
I wanna get away
Either from you or with you
I can't make decisions, don't listen to my gut
When it's telling me to run from everything that I love
'Cause everything that I love fuck me up
Eye for an eye, getting high to get by
Getting hurt, wanna die
Never said your goodbyes
Thought I was a good guy
Not for me to decide
I guess you left my life a mess and dead inside
Every start has an end, every star fades away
When I see you walk away from a better yesterday
Today I bleed, by tomorrow I'm dead
Keep that .40 pointed at my head

You've been running through my head
I'd be lying if I said I don't need you
Running through my head
I'd be lying if I said I don't need you

I fall in love every day of the week
Knee deep until my knees feel weak
Used to be the one to rock to me sleep
And now we don't speak
I fall in love every other fucking day of the week
I hate eating alone, I'm never leaving my home
Another bitch on my phone telling me that she gone
Go ahead and fuck another man
I guess I'll make another plan
I'm stuck with all these rubber bands
And not a woman to understand, yeah

You've been running through my head
I'd be lying if I said I don't need you
Running through my head
I'd be lying if I said I don't need you (shit)

Candy apple lips (she got that candy)
On my lady
Hard times, cash don't flow
For you lately
Oh god, here I go
It's been calling
Got to push for more, and more, and more

Let me get my time back
You do me wrong, I'ma do you right back
Yeah bitch, I'm like that
Let me get my sight back
'Cause right now I'm blinded by the way you say my name
By the way, I was in love like right away
Ready for I do's and new days, yeah
Let get my mind back
Let me get that knife out of my back, yeah
Let me get my cash back and my whips back
And that brand new bag back
Soulmates don't live my way, yeah
Hold hands and walk away
From me to live another day, yeah

Holding on to what you want
When I'm not home, you've been out playin'
Holding on to what you want
When I'm not home, you've been out playin'
(You've been out playin')

I know we both have obligations
Your sensations for going out override any lust I may have left
And your dress is too short for comfort
But before I end it all right here
Just a couple of things
I didn't get the chance to communicate
You don't know what you got until it's gone
That's the realist cliche that I ever heard
And to be honest, nothing is promised
And nothing is forever
and that makes me sick to my stomach wishing it was
Time is the only thing that really expires