Never Played Symphonies

Reflecting from my death bed
I’m balancing life's riches
Against the ditches
And the flat greys in between
All I can see are the never laid
That’s the never played symphonies

I can’t see those who tried to love me
Or those who felt they understood me
And I can’t see those who
Very patiently put up with me
All I can see are the never laid
Of the never played symphonies

You were one
You meant to be one
And you jumped into my face
And laughed
And kissed me on the cheek
And then were gone
Forever
Not quite

Black sky in the daytime
And I don’t much mind dying
When there is nothing left
To care for anymore
Just the never laid
The never played symphonies

You were one
You knew you were one
And you slid
Right through my fingers
No, not literally
But metaphorically
And, now you’re all I see
As the light fades