Borderline Chaotic

My mind is filled with all these thoughts
Of things you wouldn't think at all
You see me with a smile so big
But don't realize what I want to end
Crazy days and sleepless nights
Tell me that I should stay and fight

I'm borderline chaotic
Dark thoughts they are chronic
Mask will hide all of my pain
Because I know there will be better days
Someone once told me that this may not be easy
Doubt will come but you will win if you just try to believe in it

Everyone that abandoned me
Will be the first to finally see
When my name shows up in those lights
They'll come out for that one night
Then time goes by and they will cry
For whatever they need to survive
Leaching off everyone they know
To just come back and ask for more

I'm borderline chaotic
Dark thoughts they are chronic
Mask will hide all of my pain
Because I know there will be better days
Someone once told me that this may not be easy
Doubt will come but you will win if you just try to believe in it

Time to blackout and go hard
Fuck the past we living large
Nobody ever kept me down
Cause I'll fight back and take my crown
You can't keep me locked away
Cause I'll breakout with nothing to say

I'm borderline chaotic
Dark thoughts they are chronic
Mask will hide all of my pain
Because I know there will be better days
Someone once told me that this may not be easy
Doubt will come but you will win if you just try to believe in it