Right Now

Even in the space between us, it's eating me alive
A gentle smile on your face but I'm torn up inside
No, I know, it wasn't you who placed this pain in me
But take it slow, cause I can't tell friend from enemy
I'll try my best to set it free, if you'll just wait it out with me
Know I love you, but I hate you
And I'm sorry it's not me, but
It's nothing, but it's everything
God, I wish that I wish that I could be
Anything but what I am
I wish I could understand why
I hate everything right now
If I could just repair myself, take out the broken parts
Reassemble myself all anew with an unbroken heart
It's hard for me to sort through what is true and what's a lie
All I see is red anger swelling up inside
Give me some space, give me some time, and please, please keep in mind
Know I love you, but I hate you
And I'm sorry it's not me, but
It's nothing, but it's everything
God, I wish that I wish that I could be
Anything but what I am
I wish I could understand why
I hate everything right now
Is it so hard to believe
That my mind likes to play tricks on me
I take it day by day
But it's tightening its grip on me
And if it's any consolation, I am my own victim too
It's impossible to take control
But I'm the only one who's able to
It would just be so much easier if I didn't hate myself the most
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
Know I love you
But I hate everything
I'm sorry
I hate, I hate, I hate everything
Everything right now