Awareness

If I'm being honest
I don't even know what planet I'm on
It could be Earth, that's what they say
But they told me other lies and I believe them anyway
Not enough
They tell me I'm not enough
Is it normal, am I crazy, could I even be
Why do I doubt everything I feel
Is any of this real
If none of it is up to me, could you maybe please
Tinker with my programming, give me peace
If I'm being honest, I don't even know all the things I believe
I think I'm here, that's what I hear
But my mind is somewhere else, I doubt myself
Could you please be honest
All I'm asking for is a little truth
Why does it hurt, what is it worth
Do I belong among all the people that I love
Not enough
They tell me I'm not enough
They told me to try to be, assimilate entirely
I tried to hide inside their skin
They tell me I won't fit in
Why was I created to yearn for things I can't attain
How cruel that I'm so ill fated
I'm underwhelming and I hate it
I'm only doing what you told me
Just asking for love but you won't hold me
Is it what you wanted or a story
I sound so good on paper but I'm boring
If I'm being honest
I don't even know who I really am
Am I all the things I say I believe
Or just one conglomeration of the lies that you have told me
Not enough
You tell me I'm not enough