Beautiful Nightmares

Love does not want what belongs to others
It does not boast, it does not become conceited

I love you
I loved you

For the beautiful memories I’ll cherish
That left a bitter taste in my mouth
The memories of joyful laughter
As I was screaming to get out
The alluring dreams that were shared
Imprisoned as we drove through the night
Of our future plans together
I prayed would never see the light
Feelings of love and admiration
To keep me in for the game
Presents on birthdays
But no presence when the pain came
Giving you my shoulder to cry on
So you could twist my arm
Behind my back I held flowers
Withering from the harm
You told me you loved me
Never showing you cared
About everything I did for you
You never knew I was there
Those sweet memories from before
Became harder to recall
You asked me over one night
The night that changed it all

The air smelled sweet like summer
My heart told me to run from her
Smooth beats played on the sunset drive
Naive hope whisking away into the night
Pulling up to the front of the house
Almost at the door just as she came out
“I got you a drink, let’s go down to the basement
Where’s your trust in me?”
Oh, I must’ve misplaced it

Strawberries and sentiments lingered in the air
My head told me to get out of there
Before something happens that goes too far
Run back upstairs and get in your car
Don’t stop driving until you forget where you are
But a part of me felt my feelings were a farce

As the conversation and jokes ensued
I felt the room beginning to move
Words were loose, tongue-tied in a noose
Held down by the weight of trust misused
I treated you like treasure
You used me as a guilty pleasure
I love you
I loved you