Hypocrite

…endures all things

Feelings of guilt that are built
On regrets and bad decisions
Passing judgements
Hundreds of them
Then crying in the kitchen
In the apartment
Compartmentalizing emotions
Evoking vanity in the bathroom mirror
Reflecting on the sins of my father
Praying I don’t take it farther
As my Heavenly Father
Reaches out to offer
A hand I’m refusing to accept
I don’t need nobody’s help
But my wisdom’s inept
Taking another step into the unknown
I’ll make it on my own
On my charlatan throne
All alone
Hypocrite

Maybe a glass of wine’ll clear my mind
How ‘bout two?
Let loose and get a little hostile
(Maybe let’s be more thoughtful)
Just kick back the whole bottle
It is a nice cabernet
(That’s your play?)
I’m trying to forget today
(But that’s why we have tomorrow)
What’s the big deal?
I thought we had some fun for a change
Then why do I feel so much shame?
Ah, you’re just tired
Grab a glass a drink away your sorrow
You’re probably right, might as well
(I don’t like this idea)
Time will tell
(Let’s talk things out)
What is there to talk about?
I can’t be the only one to blame
(You can only speak for your name)
People speak about me
It should be fair game
(Be the bigger person, don’t act the same)
Seems hypocritical
This is pitiful, an eye for an eye
(Only you can decide
If you wanna keep living or die)
How does that even apply?
Your cup’s looking dry
(Forgive and move on
Or chase revenge ’til you’re gone)
You’re wrong, I wouldn’t be chasing for long
And then comes peace
All your problems deceased
Sounds like a good plan to me
I’m glad you agree
(You lied, stole, and idolized
Put your ego aside, apologize)
For what? For what?
Why do I have to pay for my mistakes
When everyone else gets away?
That’s a valid depiction
(You’re not always the victim
Sometimes you’re at fault)
It’s not my fault I was tempted
(But you gave in)
Only for an instant, it’s different
I like the way that you think
I need another drink,
Oh, and another thing
Here we go
I don’t need any advice
I’ve now said it twice
I’ve made it this far on my own
So just leave me alone

(You’ve had enough wine)
It’s fine, it’s helping him unwind
(Unwind? He’s coming unhinged)
He’s in control, let him be
He’s expressing his emotions
And whatever happens, happens
It’s all good
(Getting wasted isn’t the answer
He’s going to do more harm than good
And wake up with even more regret)

You’re not a man
Don’t even call yourself one
A man has humility, character, and integrity
You have none
Parading your wisdom in public
From on top of your throne
While neglecting responsibility
You need to take on your own
Pathetic excuses for every mistake that you make
Drifting far from the truth
You’ve lost all your faith
But go ahead and keep doing
All the stupid things that you do
You’ll lose everything you love
I hope this bottle kills you
Hypocrite

Heavenly Father
You asked for my hands
That You might use them
I gave them for a moment
Then withdrew them
For the work was hard
You asked for my mouth
To speak against injustice
I gave You a whisper
That I might not be accused
You asked for my eyes
To see the truth
I closed them
For I did not care to see
Forgive me for the things
I have done and not done
Said and not said
And for the life
I have lived and not lived
Deliver me a faith that is strong
A hope that endures
And a heart that endlessly loves
For with You, love never fails