Scars
Gave away my time, gave away my heart
Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art
Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
Today my mirror told me
It told me that I'm broken
Ask myself when it happened
Think some point back in Oakland
For all the years that passed when
Me and pops still hadn't spoken
Confusion brewing, young man acting out
Guess that's the notion
In eighth grade moms was tripping when
She caught me mad I'm smoking
But she was high too, we both hiding shit
Not in the open nobody told the whole truth
I ain't get that from no one
Had no direction I was reckless
Still found where I'm going
'Cause he's been through some shit
Seems like he's been losing it
Pressure start to strangle me
I wish that I could loosen it
I could make a noose with it
Don't worry I ain't using it
Sink my tooth in it
Leaning on these substances
My folks said I'm abusing it
Drinking straight to get me
There like "Won't
You put some juice in it?"
Custom to these schedules and this pressure
I got used to this
Am who I am so don't confuse the shit, yeah
Gave away my time, gave away my heart
Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art
Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
These people talk behind my back but
They don't say it to me some rumors spread
Some friends ain't even come and
Tell 'em to me like I wasn't here
Maybe they think they being helpful to me
Maybe it's not that easy
Maybe that's just selfish of me
All these opinions of me
I see the way they judge me
Can't help but wonder 'bout the truth
They been thinking of me
Still in the mirror, look at myself
Ask if I even love me
Some parts are good, some parts are bad
Some parts are fucking ugly
This mental state I'm cursed with
Got scars I can't reverse it
I'm not your Mr perfect
So far from picture perfect
Stress you out with my bullshit
Ask yourself if it's worth it
If not then walk away
You only love me on the surface
I thought a thousand verses
I finally found my purpose
I'm solo in the lab till I ain't
Find something I can work with
These words turn into memoirs
That's what I leave this Earth with
So right or wrong, I know it all was worth it
Gave away my time, gave away my heart
Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art
Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
You know, yeah so if I'm sharing it
Clearing out all the air in it
Let's go all the way there with it
This my truth and I'm bearing it
Maybe it's 'cause your parents split
Maybe it's all inherited
Plus when you go and pair it
With mania is an impairment
Undiagnosed mental illnesses not aware of it
Manic episodes going crazy
It's an embarrassment
Maybe you just passing it down to
Someone to share it with
Maybe you ignore your reflection each
Time you stare at it
Two sides, different stories
Was feeling mad confused
Fucked up when a child that
Age really has to choose
All those years with a
But this is more than some
Story about some dad issues
Maybe I should take a step back
Before I break us down
'Cause I probably won't say this if
I don't say this now
So much on my mind that I never say out loud
All I ever wanted to hear is
That I made you proud, yeah
Gave away my time, gave away my heart
Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art
Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars
'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars
Don't judge me
You should ask me 'bout my scars