Jaded

I lack enthusiasm
Theres a fault inside my atoms
I am typically so drained and bored

I talk with just sarcasm
Yes, i know it's a bad habit
There is no life left inside me anymore

Exhausted but not sleepy
And i feel my body weakening
But my boy knows how to cheer me up

I dream of sunny places
Where the palm trees shade our faces
But i don't think that the way I've been set up

And in a better scene
I'd be reckoning with all of my insecurities
Get my body clean
And be happy with no worries in my sleep

Grab my new blue jeans
And for once look in the mirror and not hate what i see
Ignore what consumes me
And never have to greet mistakes that seem to define me

My mouth seems to be empty
Though my brain is always working
Still, how can a body feel so fucking numb?

I sense my threads unwinding
And my consciousness is spiralling
But I'm trying not to bother anyone

The person that I'm meeting
But have no interest in seeing
Is telling me what i already know

I'm vexed and so resentful
That my mind can never settle
But I'm never gunna let these feelings show

And in a better scene
I'd be reckoning with all of my insecurities
Get my body clean
And be happy with no worries in my sleep

Grab my new blue jeans
And for once look in the mirror and not hate what i see
Ignore what consumes me
And never have to greet mistakes that seem to define me

Its always towered
Over me
I've smoked for hours
Watching the tv screen

Corrupt my thoughts
With the news i have seen
Go drown in the the pool
Cos your caught in your dreams