Easy Beauty

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride away from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?

Because I can't hold on when stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then. I just end up getting hurtagain

By myself (myself)
I ask why (but in my mind I find)
I cant rely on myself
I can't hold on
(To what I want when I'm stretched so thin)
Its just too much to take in
I cant hold on
(To anything watching everything spin)
With thoughts of faliure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on (then they'll)
Take from me till everything is gone

If I let them go I'll be outdone (but if I)
Try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

How do you think
I've lost so much
Im so afraid
And I'm out of touch
How do you expect
I will know what to do
When all I know
Is what you tell me to

Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what it do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside