D.W.T.W. 2 (Hakai)

Part 1: Done With The World 2

[Intro]
Rina
I can hear myself good now
You’re good now, haha

[Pre-Verse]
Haunted by the memories of you in this life
Man, I’ve met so many dudes that were jealous of me
I’m trying to get it together and focus on doing what’s right
But I swear to God, I don’t even know what’s expected of me
Harahan was the death of me, life never meant less to me
Had to sit through your worst, while you just begged for the best of me
You made a mess of me, and honestly couldn’t care less for me being trapped
Or the fact my dead best friend keeps texting me
It ain’t real, and I won’t fail
I’m taking my life back, and that’s destiny
I’ve got to go
I’ve got to go...

[Verse 1]
I see we're still killing each other, wait, scratch that
Seems we ain't feeling each other, wait, scratch that
See I've been a victim of struggle
I've been a victim, but doubled down on my mission
Yet trouble followed maliciously, bagbak
Pictures I paint are hollow like tips that fill you with sorrow
Similar to what I spit cause you gon feel it tomorrow
My plan A is my plan B
Still got some fight left, so tell Death fore I bite dust, I'll be sure to be all I can be
It’s gun shot after gun shot
From where Heaven and Hades meet, the liquor and gun shops
Guarantee if you ain’t hit with a stray, then your lungs stop
They walk around blind lacking visual impairment, but there’s nowhere to run now
They want us to ignore the chem trails and every life lost to them's a solar flare to end trails
I remember years ago, I was back then twelve
People skiing down bunny slopes, had to inhale, wait
Even as a kid you were suicidal, you know that
You never had to say it's do or die though, cause you would show that
But you’re sure that overdosing on your thoughts ain't how you want to go out
That's why you’d look in the mirror like don't you hold back feelings
You were always a leader, the beat's a canvas
Whenever you spit, you paint Mona Lisa, the features damaged
They treat you like you're crazy, but some times you have to prove it
In order to show you're smart and you’re winning, you have to lose it
How crucial was Rina?
How crucial is Aaliyah to your focus?
How crucial were Vale, Hali, Nay & Binky to your hope?
Or was it hopelessness
The former you never thought you would know
Even in Summer heat, dudes you went to school with made it snow
As for your old friends, and the old you
You know, the Byron that would feel things
Real things, he even tried to conceal pain back in the day
They said it was weak to show
Masculinity's what you need to show
So hardest out as if I was the seed of John Q
Funny how fast all your past demons can find you
Ain't got a clue how y'all ain't got a clue about my suicidal tendencies
And all I've got to do to prove that you are not my enemy
Usually they say your success is normally based on perspective
When I'm spitting, I'm doing more than just venting
Respect comes as a blessing from peers
But how's it in your best interest if you don't know their intentions?
Maybe my paranoia gets the best of me
Or maybe that's my conscience trying to save me unexpectedly
Been locked away so long, no longer have a life expectancy
Kels, Aaliyah, Rina, what I see in them’s a better me
Say you get one moment in life to be great
But I’m living proof, you get as many moments as you can make
Never know how good your fortune is
Till you see the people you grew up with still at the starting point like they don't exist
Ain't nothing but a bunch of drug abuse and homicide
I mean, there's such a lack of peace that even drama's tired
If I had it, I would probably throw my pride aside
Tell my old friends I love them, tell them Byron tried
I still feel as if I need to have words with you
A few times, went Seth Rollins on the curb for you
In due time, if I ever cease to exist, and I perish
The kid you cherished, example of what these burdens do
Oh pardon me
If you need me, just call on me
All these burdens
Wait up, I really meant demons are all I see
When I think of Kels and Aaliyah
Looking into a mirror, I see those two in every way, every hue and every shade
They’re the yin to my yang, the good within the badness
I've got this old picture with Val from Summer Bridge
But that was a burning bridge due to battles that I was having
Imagine me sobered up that year, without the baggage
I mean Val, you ought to know I'm prone to self destruct
To think they think I only care about my selfish luck
But way back when we were friends, I had your back until the end
That’s ironic cause I ain't even trust myself with trust
I told y’all I would never succumb, even if it came with consequences
Climbed out of that slump with good intentions
That’s when I realized things would never be the same
Because I know who I love, but I barely feel a thing

[Hook]
For the love of the money?
For the lust?
For the cars?
Listen, you ain’t gotta stunt, dawg
You ain’t gotta stunt, dawg
Nah, you ain’t gotta stunt, dawg

Not afraid of you just because you have a gun, dawg
You can shoot first, and you’ll feel like a man up until your time comes, dawg
Tell them I won’t last forever

[Interlude]
This process helped me realize that people are borderline terrified to look at themselves in the mirror. They don’t like that. Odds are, they won’t like what they see. When I look in the- Hold on...

Part 2: Hakai

[Intro]
Prophecy fulfilled
An addiction to the thrill was overshadowed by my constant inability to feel
Had a convo with my conscience that’s been eating me alive since
Tell me I’m too young to die, but you and I know that I will
For real...

[Verse 1]
Probably thought it was only music
Even when I had a heart, I worked hard with no time to use it
I told y'all a storm was coming
Oh, you ain't heard how these wolves turn chattel and kindness, they abuse it
If best friends really make great for enemies
You'd better heed warnings if that's what it's finna be
In this uphill battle we call life
Lately, perspective isn't worth much, but that's alright
Cause even though I rarely saw light, never lost sight of my goals
Like never mind Rina, who's next up on the polls
Hold up
I missed out on plenty beautiful souls on this road to recovery, wait
Brittany, Tanisha, whoever
Just know I hope this planet loves you today
Who would have thought my downfall would set me up to be great
I spent years trying to fix myself and kept quiet
Watched friends start dropping like flies, but kept trying
Cause when life gave lemons, she kept it pushing despite them
Only for her to end up hanging, just like them
For years, tried to find a way to cope with her leaving
Like, maybe Rina killed herself because she thought she was dreaming
Though whatever keeps you alive will probably be your demise
But with all these lows, who thought our last high would be our goodbye
Cause they say money makes the world go round, I LOL at that
ILY though I know she won't ever text it back

[Hook]
When the sun goes down, tell me what you live for
Because I don’t see change round here
To be honest, I just see a lot a chains round here
Gold nooses, love ain’t a thing round here, whoa

I don’t have a lot of time left
Being afraid to love is childish
You know we’re all blessed
You’ll be leaking here for nothing, so love yours
Cause if it’s your last hour, then you know we’re bout to stress so hard

[Verse 2]
They say money makes the world go round, I LOL at that
IMY though I know she won't ever text it back
If I spit it, you'd better believe it's real
I make the type of records even a paraplegic feels
All perspective
I've seen dudes do less with more, fail to realize what they're blessed with
Before you know it, they go from the hardest person you've ever met in your life to a pessimistic mess on the floor that was destined to flourish
Dawg, it gets deep
No matter how popping these waves are
Cause ain't no better flow than me as far all these so called peers can see
Ain't even on my radar
Girls getting preyed on so much, they forget their knees were used to pray on
I just hope Aaliyah gets spared for her well being
I'm well aware my mind state is still healthy enough to feed her food for thought
I just hope she's still eating
With Kels at odds with herself, we'll never feel even
I was exhausted, lost in my thoughts
Making our moments bittersweet, thinking what did they cost
Could move mountains with this brain of mine, but couldn’t kill my doubt yet
These vocal chords are here for a reason, in need of outlets
Had to find some inner peace, leave me lone a couple years
Let me get back on my feet to fight my demons, not my tears
Feared the loss of my girls, through your minor point of views
Till I grew, and realized they were never mine to lose

[Hook]
When the sun goes down, tell me what you live for
Because I don’t see change round here
To be honest, I just see a lot a chains round here
Gold nooses, love ain’t a thing round here, whoa

I don’t have a lot of time left
Being afraid to love is childish
You know we’re all blessed
You’ll be leaking here for nothing, so love yours
Cause if it’s your last hour, then you know we’re bout to stress so hard

[Verse 3]
Back in the day, I used to hope I never crossed the line
End up crucified, these bullet will make you dolphin dive
I made a promise I’m down to keep till my dying day
Know it ain’t your time when even depression will stand in line to wait
Dudes I used to ball with are now spree killers
Best mistake was always being myself at the right time and place
I told y’all, it’s like three of me when I’m on my one, two
And I burn bridges, so where are my haters going to run to
Now you would think these memories trigger resentment
Negative energy seeping out of my pores like liquor
You hear the screeching of the tires, see the car smoke
But all you really see is black and white, Winnie Harlow
I don’t see the logic in it
Everybody under pressure cause whatever you say, everybody and their mom’s offended
Had to explain to Kelsey why I was done living
Everything I needed to do for me, I’m done with it
Need I reiterate that we’re rebels
I was fighting for years, till I found a way to dodge these devils
So many sacrifices had to be made
I’d rather not feel anything than ever have to be caged
Ain’t no more hopscotch where we stay
All they know is blood splatter, sirens, and police tape
Ironic how me dying early on allowed me to live longer
I’ll be fine knowing my soul has finally been granted a release date

[Hook]
When the sun goes down, tell me what you live for
Because I don’t see change round here
To be honest, I just see a lot a chains round here
Gold nooses, love ain’t a thing round here, whoa

I don’t have a lot of time left
Being afraid to love is childish
You know we’re all blessed
You’ll be leaking here for nothing, so love yours
Cause if it’s your last hour, then you know we’re bout to stress so hard

[Outro: Byron + (Marina)]
[(Laughs)]
So as I was saying, the ramblings of a mad man can be very dangerous; especially for those that listen
(Right)