In Time
One day I'll make it out in time
Then take it one day at a time
Or try and find another way to hide
Before you get me and take my life
Choked up hung up
Waiting for me to die
It's just my luck but I'm calming I'll survive
We just broke up now I'm wondering bout my life
The color has left the sky
Darkness all in my eyes
Woke up I'm stuck
The rope is way to tight
Show up and you come to make sure it won't untie
You punch my gut when I can barely put up a fight
You stabbed me a couple more times
Can't even take out the knife
You say I won't get out in time
I know that it's a lie
They say to follow light but pain is all I find
Won't stay in rage but through the years it stayed the same
The crave of lust did not age a day
I can't speak
Cuz your rope ain't letting me breath my lungs's weak
Please don't give up on me the hole's deep
When I'm done suffocating that's where you'll put me
Cuz you think they won't remember me
One day I'll make it out in time
Then take it one day at a time
Or try and find another way to hide
Before you get me and take my life
Maybe I should give in
But how would I win?
I'm only crying within
Wish i can let someone in
When I did they'd sit and judge everything
Then wonder why I'm a prick and won't let em back in
I won't seek revenge but forget forgiveness
I won't pretend that a grudge ain't hidden
I won't budge but listen here Lust
Forbidden your trust in written's but because
Outside of this your giving rust in how I live in this dust I have to pin
Adjustments to the wall but you're busting through
All my substance
You the cause of all my blood clogs
I'm tryna plunge you out of my skin
I'm not finished
There's so much you've done to me
I was a kid and feels like you abducted me
I've been hating my life after and before I sleep
Bout to take this knife cut the rope might fall but I'm free
One day I'll make it out in time
Then take it one day at a time
Or try and find another way to hide
Before you get me and take my life
I don't want no one to care about how I wanna live my life
Grow up and think like them cuz they know what's best for my life
I lost so much trust in people I thought can help my life
Can't even fall in love cuz she made it something I can't find
Went to church only cuz I had to see my father's eyes
You hold up all the hurt as if you won a prize
I'm shocked I'm still alive but I was taught it's cuz of Christ
Never wanted suicide but you want me to change my mind
This walk in life is so hard and I'm still young
I envy innocent kids cuz all they do is love
This cell is so cold and the only thing above is the rope that has me choked
And it won't even budge
This is what my depression feels like
And they don't see it cuz I'm real nice
Let go the past and focus on the future life
Cuz struggles don't happen late they happen in time
One day I'll make it out in time
Then take it one day at a time
Or try and find another way to hide
Before you get me and take my life