negatives (feat. Mega Nova)

One for my addicts
Two for the mistakes we made
Sayin' that it's hereditary
I know I chose to stay in place
One for my bitches
Two for the love we lost
Learnin' how to gain something great and not fuck it off
Trust its not
Easy as they say it is
My patience wearing paper thin
The substance helps me make amends
With me at least for the hour
Then it wears off I need more shit to devour
A gluttonous n****
Always scared and obsessed with power
I know it's bound to come
Just need to get this album done
My sound is one you can't replicate
I'm moving mountains um
Maybe that's a little cap
Sick and where my n***** at
It's really only me climbing this hill to not fail in rap
I fell off more than once
And I had never reached the top before
Shit is goofy as common core
Stop popping rocks and talking with whores
Say that imma stop I know
Then I go and rock a show
Repeat all my woes and then sit inside alone
The nicest vices to keep me away from slicing
My neck but its so enticing
This life like Mike Tyson
Punch me till I'm on the floor
He's down for the count
Cussing, screaming, "Please no more"
Still gotta find a way out
And imma keep hunting
Until I fucking perish
Scared as any other n****
Livin with no merit
I'll be there in due time
Until then you can see me squaring off
With all these rappers one by one
Fuck you and your parents
First son
False start
I'm tossing coin and making wishes
Investing on fallen stars
This the business
These moving parts
Feel like I'm stuck in the grinder
Need a reminder how much longer till I fall apart
Starting to see who you are
Peace in place is life still hard?
Still got the left cheek scar
Oh I remember how it got there, how could I forget
Where I came from
I was the seed of regret, the lesser man I haven't met
That's why it's just so hard for me
To find some respect
I press the pen to my ideas, and validating the checks
I'm writing memoirs how I made it but I ain't there yet
All these bad memories faded, but not me I never left
I'm etched in stone uh
I'm in the dirt yuh
The mud stuck between my bones
Oh my death could never hurt
Cause what I made is forever, despite regrets of my world
What I live for is the homies, what I do is eat worms
Never eating my words, I say shit cuz I mean it
I like to think this for a reason, all the pain I guess I need it
Found a home then I leave it
Kill my dreams and then I grieve it
But I never retreated
I got something to believe in
Promises of tomorrow
All the time that I borrowed
Take a hit to the head
And now it's leaking precious cargo
Seeka sparkle, uh
Imma moth to a flame
Now I can see through the dark
Swear I'm never getting lost again