lilhope4me

Homies hitting me up
But I been silent a couple months
Ain't been outside for a couple of days
The sun so hot could fry my brain
It ain't no haze
God has his ways
Probably gonna put me in my place
And if I fuck up, let him erase
Slip on my hubris
Let me fade
Need a restart
I need an escape
But the hole I dug only go one way
Swept the rug
I had no vacuum
This ain't a home
But a place I stay
I ain't okay
I been through change
Is it for better?
I can't say
I seen better but lately these days
I feel more thankful for all I see
Been up late
Woke up later
I'm the issue instigator
I'm the reason for the season of dysfunctional behavior
Made a name for no replaying now I'm wasting all our favors
I could try a little harder
Why encourage more my failure?
This familia
This shit major
Minor label
Maybe later
Need investment
Need more paper
Like for the real, my dad a Mexican
And what that make me then?
Pocho y no sabo, got uprooted
What was growth?
Shrunk in stature, its survival
Huh

Yeah
I had no water
They ordered boneless
I got no spine but got an angle
So imma get it
Like regardless
I'm an opponent

Do I still got it?
Is my blood flowing?
And what's the purpose?
Girl where we going?
Why am I driving?
Why you so trusting?
Cuz I'll be honest
Aye, aye
There ain't no holding
Uh, uh
There ain't no shoulder to shoulder
But I must level the boulder
Reconsider the order
Of what's important to nurture
That goes both ways for sure
I could improve all my work
I only think through my words
That's why my head empty of worth
Ahead of rest, that's the perk
I had some leeway for curtains
I had the runway for two minutes
But it felt like the world
I took my time way too long
Shit it coulda been worse
Shit it coulda been better
I guess we never gon' know
I get just way too vulnerable
I talk too much she know me well
Read my mind just like its braille
I'm finger locked inside her curls
My head spinning for a minute
Catch my breath but waste it first
Reinvent a different image
Self perception like a curse
That's why its-

Little hope for me
Got so little hope for me
Ugh
Little hope for me
Honestly got little hope for me
What got over me?
Natural dopamine