Stable

Why can't I be stable
Stable like a tree
Why can't I have some space
Why can't just have some space
Why can't I have some time to breath or to breath out
When I'm happy I just can't write
Maybe this is a curse in all might
I'm getting lost and it happens so fast
The only spell I can cast
Is put it in the past
In last song I mentioned splitting
It has a meaning
I am on a constant border
Borderline personality disorder
World in just two sides
Seeing things in two lines
Good and bad
Black and white
Happy or sad
It's a constant fight
Love her or not
I don't wanna boycott
It's not defense
It's a fence
All those possibilities you can't see
Choices, impossibilities you once did
So I am far from free
She was my light, before it hit
But now I see only dark it flick
It's a big fright quick
I need a spark
I have a match called Benzodiazepine
I also need more Sertraline
Now we have a fire
But I can go higher
Add some mood stabilizer
No worries I have a supervisor
Let's not forget anti psychotics
Without them I'd be a little more psychotic
Little more paranoid
It's a reality steroid
No more blood baths
I can see the aftermaths
I am dissociating
Which I am associating
With being in pain
Do you feel the same?
A lot of people do
Damn, what are we going through
Stable
Stable
I want to cry, even when I don't know why
All this makes me question myself
Who am I to put this on a public shelf?
Crying over what was, even when it was the worst
Is it just my inner secret thirst?
These are the two sides splitting you see?
Those are the many splitted faces of me!
The person I have problem with is me
Yes my problem has a solution and it is me
But you girl messed up too it's true
You weren't there, when I needed you
You walked by like nothing was going on
It hurts to talk to you!
said the last one
Words moments like this can break me
And my body is drowning in a Red Sea
Splitting is seeing the world in extremes
It can be triggered even by my dreams
So welcome here nothing is real
With this, it is hard to heal
Just don't do what A did
I'm her public enemy her fiend
I have other song for that
But wait 'cause it's not yet out
Stable
Stable