So Long Ago (feat. Stevie Lee)

I'm easily manipulated my soul is easily tainted, to try to be the artist that you have been waiting for/
I'm always Getting Faded my heart is easily jaded, only accessible to those who knew me right before/
I was the quiet kid, standing in the back/
Realizing that conviction, was something that I lack/
So my homie Max, said why don't you grow a sack/
I knew within my heart I had to stop, holding back/
No need to lie to kick it, this life can make you Wicked/
Make you flip like a gymnast, you know you better stick it/
It's crazy how positivity turn so negative/
High on the drama think I need to take myself a sedative/
Yo Lighting up a cigarette, I'm standing at the edge/
But it doesn't make a difference if you're hanging from a ledge/
cs my eyelids closed cocaine in my nose/
Nose dive head-first my soul I expose hey/

the rising cost of my mistakes,
has become too high to pay

Self-sabotage, seem to be the way to go/
Lying through my teeth, nose growing like Pinocchio/
Mimicking Muhammad cli, doing the rope-a-dope /
Trying to be a star like the ones you see in the telescope/
See me in the shop and mimic my every action/
Never realizing every action has a reaction/
So hard to gain traction, I mean I'm trying to save the fuckin world why everybody else sitting back and relaxing/
csthma attackin my lungs, I can hardly manage/
I try to sell my soul but that shit is too badly damaged/
How I've been able to manage, is from the liquor bottle trying to save the kids but I've never been a good role model/
Praying I can hit the lotto, so I can save the entire human race and pray to God that one day you would follow/
My example, no I never been a perfect man/
But I still have time, to do the best I can/

This ever-increasing weight
relentlessly keeps me awake

i know that I'm meant for more than this,
seems as though I've barely scratched the surface.
so i struggle on through the bullshit.
I'm nowhere near being done,
so dont write me off yet.

the rising cost of my mistakes,
has become too high to pay.
this ever increasing weight,
relentlessly keeps me awake.