I feel? Interlude

I'm on a wave soul surfing soul search for myself
I'm on an island down near Thailand, replaying clips and counting shells
Yea, I'm just
I'm just
I'm tryna count sheep, cuz sleep something lately that I really need
I'm going crazy baby, maybe I'm just seeing you in my dreams
I hope for peace
Telling myself that maybe one we will be
Grand soliloquy, this soldiers going down honorably
Yea
I tried to work it all out, fucked it up more
Fucking perfect
It's no secret , yea I'm feeling weird and worthless
Ima loner and freak, you laugh me, and clown my circus
But underneath the surface, I know, that you still think about the good me, cuz we were Worth it
You brush your heart away like I hurt it
Somehow I always find out
Ugly truths about my pain
Yea