Toxic Air

I'm feeling kinda lost right now
Don't know where life is going
Always questioning my future
Motivation stolen
They say there's always light
At the end of the tunnel
But will I ever get there?
Trying to escape
This negative headspace
But I'm never not scared
Can't stand all the pressure
And the judgement
Am I a failure of a son?
Even though they all say
That the love me
Sometimes I just wanna run
What's with all the pushing
And the rushing?
Still searching for my path
Just take it easy
Be patient with me
Why am I wrong for that?

Only so much that I can bare
Too much of this toxic air
Struggling to find myself
And you think you do
But you don't really help
All you do is demand and plead
Trying to make me heal
But it makes me bleed
Now I'm left broken
And your disappointed
I was already choking
And you're just added poison

I've lost my direction
Don't know where I will go
This doesn't mean I'm giving in
But still feel frozen, ice cold
So I gotta go for glory
Cause I owe it to myself
One day I'll drip in wealth
Improving mental health
Whatever it takes not to melt
I hate talking about feelings
With other people
Insecure that I won't
Be treated equal
But Imma live
To fight another day
Not a quitter
No matter what you say
I'm gonna be happy
Push the sadness away
Trying not to end up
In a dead end place

Only so much that I can bare
Too much of this toxic air
Struggling to find myself
And you think you do
But you don't really help
All you do is demand and plead
Trying to make me heal
But it makes me bleed
Now I'm left broken
And your disappointed
I was already choking
And you're just added poison
You're just added poison
You're just added poison