Arms Bent Back

I write this as my heart beats out my chest
Today went fine, I guess, I had some laughs
But I was clingwrap stuck to whoever listened
The TV drones to be a useless distraction
There's a new war to defer, a new person I've let down
I can't shimmy past the distance
I can't waltz into enlightenment
I take it line by line, it's all in front of me, but

Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back

How do I shut them out when there are so
Many things I've been told to not let in
How do I reason that things will be okay
Theres hurricanes and hatred everyday
Bombarded by reality, this world is maligned
An aphrodisiac that lets us escape
I want to drag them all down to where I live:
The lie downs, the fear that it's all going wrong
That I'm just irritation, that I'm cursed to never learn
Consumption, distraction, and dopamine
I love you, now walk on me, I need you, just spit on me
I only comprehend the fantasy because

Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back

And am I everything I do not want to be?
I just don't feel in line with this red reality
Just cuz you're on your own don't mean you're ever free
So am I everything I do not want to be?

Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back
Sometimes my arms bend back

No I will never let them in
I'll hold my own against them
No I will never let them in
I'll never stop resisting

No I will never let them in (sometimes my arms bend back)
I'll hold my own against them (sometimes my arms bend back)
No I will never let them in (sometimes my arms bend back)
I'll never stop resisting (sometimes my arms bend back)