Speak in spite

I don't deserve all the things that I wanted
Right from the moment I knew we departed
My vision of you, it was skewed, it was blotted
Wish I could go back before this all started
No blood in my hands, No I will not meet your demands, so
Shut the fuck up I command, did pass the red cup, Imma slam this
Oh

I cannot go tonight, I just want to stay at home tonight
Baby I know what is right, stay up all night yes I am gonna write
All of my problems, no ones gon' solve them
Work my way up to these goals then she robs them
Like the idea of love just not the whole thing
This where my problems resides, where the stem brings
Problems all up in my head; rather be dead
Body feels numb and it spreads
Cope with the pain and I know
Just have to let go
Whats happened can't change; just move forward

Might just go add some more scars tonight
Stabbed in the back not my heart tonight
Can't tell the difference 'tween wrong and right
She stepped out my life and left no goodbye

I don't deserve all the things that I wanted
Right from the moment I knew we departed
My vision of you, it was skewed, it was blotted
Wish I could go back before this all started
No blood in my hands, No I will not meet your demands, so
Shut the fuck up I command, did pass the red cup, Imma slam this
Oh

I just cry like every night
Scream fuck that bitch; I speak in spite
I took my wealth, my life, my pride back
Fuck that bitch she'd never write back
Fuck that bitch she'd never write back
I can't seem to get my mindset
I can't seem to hold no hands
Fuck around I got no plans
She lost her Interest I knew
Then lead me for a month, maybe two
Got me like, what the fuck am I gon' do
Fuck all this shit let me light a doob