Monster

In my worst nightmare
I became the monster
Love gets lost nowhere
I can feel my throat in despair

I am swaying alone
Wearin' your tee shirt, smell your cologne
I overthink and get hurt
I overthink and revert
If I'm dreamin' alone
I won't pick up my own phone
I won't accept what I know,
Make it hurt to the bone
Feelings so wrong I'm so cold
Feeling so wrong it gets old

In my worst nightmare
You became the monster
Shove my heart back under
Take me to your layer
I'm in so much pain
If I cry enough will I escape?
I'm in so much pain
If I die like this will it go away?

I feel like I'm never enough
Sleeping away of depression in thoughts
Working away to distract from my thoughts
Lying to you so you think that I'm not that scared
Where I wanna disappear
I never wanna lose myself in here