Certainly Certainty

Have you ever felt the presence
Of ghosts in your bedroom?
Have you ever felt the absence
Of pain in a flesh wound?
Do you ever find yourself in a
Bathroom stall regretting everything
You've put yourself through?
Because I do
Have you ever woken up to a
Monster in your bed?
Have you ever woken up under
Covers covered in sweat?
Do you ever find yourself
Finding convenient exits
From every commitment

Because you're scared?
Yeah, you're scared of leaving home
It's okay
Because I'm equally afraid
I know certainly certainty's
Got the best of me
But I would much appreciate you
Sparing your company
For I have loved many
But I've left plenty more behind

I swear I'm getting there
It just takes time

I swear I'm getting there

But I can't accept myself
For who I've become, so
I except myself from
Reaching out to anyone

I know we've lived, we've learned
We've grown, but the inputs of
Others still rise over my own