Some Wretched Curse

I don' know which way to turn
But God knows I've had enough time to think about it
And will I ever learn
Well it sure as hell doesn't look like it
I don' know which way I'm going
I don' know who I've been
And if it all amounts to nothin' would you call me your friend
Would you whisper in my ear
Tell me all the things I oughta fear
Well it don' matter our ashes will scatter
Across the water and disappear
I don' know if I'm the same as
Or a whole lot worse
Than every other mother tryin'
To lift some wretched curse
I don' know which way to turn
But God knows I've had enough time to think about it
And will I ever learn
Well it sure as hell doesn't look like it
I've been a long time on this mountain
Yet I cannot see the top
I guess I'll have to keep on climbin'
Until Jesus tell me to stop
Until you whisper in my ear
Tell me all the things I oughta hear
Well it don' matter our ashes will scatter
Across the water and disappear
And I wonder if you'd notice
If I never came back
Would you sigh or blink an eyelid
Would you register a lack
I don't know which way to turn
But God knows I've had enough time to think about it
And will I ever learn
Well it sure as hell doesn't look like it