Coward

Killing myself slowly
So no one notices
I have a pain growing
But I can't pinpoint it
You make me forget about those things sometimes
Hope I'm not using you to get through this ride
I'm a coward on the frontline
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me
Cause I really don't wanna fuck this up
It's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup
I've set the bar so low for myself that I trip over it every time I get up
How do I let myself get to the point where I'm laying in bed trying not to throw up
And it's not a worry cause everyone knows that I practically do this shit for fun
Last week I looked myself right in the mirror and I said I hate us
I'm a coward on the frontline
I'm a hypocrite with my time
I've spoke bigger things than white lies
And I'm good at cutting my ties
But you scare me
Cause I really don't wanna fuck this up
It's part of why I'm slowing down with drugs
But I'm never pouring out this cup