Self Medicated

A cynic I'm hopeless I'm broken
There is no light inside of me
I'm tired, I'm restless, I'm lonesome
But I can never sleep

My mind plays games when I'm alone now
You said the worst things to get inside my head
Intoxication takes control now
Self medication takes it's grip

I'm crawling on the floor
(Take deep breaths, your heart is racing)
There's clawing at the door
Oh God, dont let 'em take me

Now I have to find a way out
I have to find my voice
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me

When I'm completely numb, a darkness takes me
I turn into someone I hate completely
It's me against the world
Take cover, you can not fix me
Just throw me to the wolves
I'm a victim of self pity

Now I have to find a way out
I haνe to find my voice
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me
Now I have to find a way back
I have to make a choice
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me

I've given up
I'm in for a lifetime of second guessing
Everything that I've become
My mind plays games when I'm alone
Self medicated intoxication takes control

Now I have to find my way out
I have to find my voice
These thoughts are no good for me

Now I have to find a way out
I have to find my voice
I'm entertaining thoughts that are no good for me
Now I have to find a way back
I have to make a choice
I'm never losing sight of what's in front of me