Lonely On Christmas
Yo, finna take yall on the sad side, of the sleigh
[Hook]:
Love this holiday
Just leave me lonely
Let me fade away
I'm finding it hard to try to love this time of year
Just leave me lonely
Let me hide beside my fears
[Verse 1: Monoxide]:
December 25th 1994
3 car pile up on the 2-way road
Only one survived and you already know
That it was me but the driver from the end of his road
Now I'm making phone calls to everyone he knows
Ruinin everybody's holiday spirit but I suppose
They hear it from the poet who made it
Even worse than yall know
I ain't do it to hurt, I'm already feeling lower than dirt
Like I'm leaving the earth
Just to be alone separated from life's birth
The world segregates and leave me to be on this Christmas
Cause it's still a little bit too much to deal with
Alone I sit tryna keep it together
But the more drunk I get the more I remember
That fateful night when you lost your life
And ever since then in my heart Christmas don't feel right
[Hook]:
Love this holiday
Just leave me lonely
Let me fade away
I'm finding it hard to try to love this time of year
Just leave me lonely
Let me hide beside my fears
[Verse 2: Madrox]:
No more songs being sung in harmony
No more door to door carolers come to bother me
Leave me alone rather be buried in snow
Than to let this feeling that I'm feeling have the chance to carry on
I'm like Ebeneezer but I'm down in the dumps
Hope the ghost of Christmas future had the feel to lift me up
Put me back amongst the rest with the smiles of joy
The way you used to captivate me when I was a little boy
Its been a long time since and each and every Christmas
Grow a little bit colder and further from happiness
Now I would never ever want to ruin your time of cheer
So I will keep my distance and sit right here
All alone and by myself not even a Christmas tree
I'm embarrassed at the thoughts you're probably thinking of me
So I won't think about it
I just close my eyes in a cold dark room as I refuse to try to
[Hook]:
Love this holiday
Just leave me lonely
Let me fade away
I'm finding it hard to try to love this time of year
Just leave me lonely
Let me hide beside my fears
[Verse 3: Monoxide]:
They say that time passes on and it heals all wounds
But this one cut a little too deep and I assume
Which is fine on my feet I can walk out of the gloom
That consumes me like the walls on the room
Been lying for when its finally through
When I could move on
But for now, Christmas is just too wrong
Wish I could sing a new song
Instead I'm chucking deuces like a two prong
[Hook]:
Love this holiday
Just leave me lonely
Let me fade away
I'm finding it hard to try to love this time of year
Just leave me lonely
Let me hide beside my fears
[Outro: Madrox]:
Yo minding your own
Digging alone
Giving me the gift
You better get gone
You look in the mail
Don't answer the phone
Then fuck off in the car
And get in your zone
Yo minding your own
Digging alone
Giving me the gift
You better get gone
You look in the mail
Don't answer the phone
Then fuck off in the car
And get in your zone
Yo minding your own
Digging alone
Giving me the gift
You better get gone
You look in the mail
Don't answer the phone
Then fuck off in the car
And get in your zone
Yo minding your own
Digging alone
Giving me the gift
You better get gone
You look in the mail
Don't answer the phone
Then fuck off in the car
And get in your zone