Lilies (Live)

I see the lilies in the dark
Crystal rendition of thorns in every damn valve of my heart
Sinister purgatory in the form of my head
Can't fall asleep, yet I am clung to my bed
Fed up with status quo, yet still long to feel
Just 'cause you can see it, doesn't mean it is real

All I ever really feel, all we ever really feel is pain
Try to find some happiness, but in vain
They say you cant have sunshine without any rain
Yet constant precipitation is starting to look really lame

The fraudulent facade from the sorrow
An internal bleed caused by a photo
Numbness of pain from all the gaping wounds
This thick space has left me without any breathing room
Waiting for a wind, to be blown away as do broken kites
Wrists are always bleeding, my head is demeaning, holding on for dear life
Lying in my cell, can't, for reasons unknown, remember the lights
Scared of the shit, that I might do tonight
Scared of the shit, that I might do to end this
Can't remember what the start looked like, but I'm now eager to finish

All I ever really feel, all we ever really feel is pain
Try to find some happiness, but in vain
They say you cant have sunshine without any rain
Yet constant precipitation is starting to look really lame