the curse
I've been crying out for help, I guess that nobody can hear me
Yeah I say that I'm okay, but to be real I'm nowhere near it
Don't be fooled by my demeanor, you know looks can be deceiving
I've been struggling to find a sense of purpose
What's the meaning?
Like these thoughts used to be fleeting, now they constantly deplete me
I've been thinking about a lot, but clearly ain't been thinking clearly
I don't ever ask for much, but all I want's some inner peace
Starting to think I'll only find it when I'm 6 feet underneath
And I know that everybody's out there fighting their own demons
Just can't help but feel that mine are all particularly evil
They stalk me through my days, and make certain I never sleep
I just hope and pray one day that I'll eventually be free
But I guess that I'll just have to waste away until then
My grave, I'm digging
Been slowly drifting away
How did I end up in this position I'm in?
Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end
Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end
Let me just be honest for a second, let me level with ya
Life is just a game of trying not to let the devil get ya
And it's hard, oh so hard for me
How I just want to be
Fucked up
Still? Damn
You would think that I'd be good by now, as long as I've been down
Well maybe I deserve it, I'm a sinner after all
And I was cursed upon my birth to put these lyrics in these songs
Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I don't know if it's worth it
I just hope there's someone out there picking up what I've been putting down
And tell the reaper come and get me
I've been waiting on that motherfucker, patient, sitting pretty
But I guess that I'll just have to waste away until then
My grave, I'm digging
Been slowly drifting away
How did I end up in this position I'm in?
Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end
Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end