Fucked Up (Hurt)

Weeks have gone by, and I still think of you
This cup runs dry, think I need a round two
I tried to reply, but I don't know how to
I was searching for perfection, and then I found you
And it was all good 'till I saw it...
All those mother fuckers in your contacts...
Looking at the messages, I think I get the concept
My anger had been growing ever slowly in my conscience...
FUCK!
I BELIEVED IN YOUR LIES...
Took it as truth
But you stabbed me in the back just like all of them do
And it killed me inside...
A hollowed out dude...
Foolish for believing you would help me push through
But it's my fault...
And I can't blame this on you so I dive off...
Don't wanna talk about you, but they drive on
Thinking that I'm fine but I wanna fucking DIVE OFF
FUCK!
Pent up with emotion and it sucks...
Dreaming of an ocean and I'm stuck...
Calling out for help, but no luck...
Thought I was free, but I'm fucked up...
Heart telling me no one loves us...
It's hard to believe it was just us...
Now it's me, memories made of saw dust
Fine... Look, I get it...
I told you I loved you; but I meant it...
But I shouldn't have fallen and I regret it...
I type a paragraph, I'm like "forget it..."
She just gonna wanna disrespect it anyways
And I'm anxious with depression
Wanna cry but I prevent it
Not to mention
This music shit, it is making me fucking STRESSED
And I'm losing stability getting reckless...
I'm sorry if this hurts but I just needed to address this...
I know why I'm so angry, so I gave it some direction
You held onto my heart and I was hoping for protection
But you cut it into pieces and then told me that I DID IT...
FUCK!
What is love?
It could really be a drug...
Withdrawals every time I think about your kisses and your hugs, and I lose it...
Stupid...
Tired of the lies, I just need a little true shit
The betrayal's getting old and I can't keep doing this
I hear them competing to see who the fucking truest is
But all I see are masks, and I just can't tell who it is...
So I'm by myself..
Fuck it all
Blow it all to fucking high-hell
I'd rather love the pain in my head where I dwell
Fuck friends, I would drop everything else...
I did it all alone, and alone I'll prevail
Suicide lines are a lie, they don't help
I was dying inside, but I'm alright now
I just needed to see all of the power that I held
Inside of myself
Quit disguising... and depriving myself...
'Cause I'll be alright
With the time I will heal
With a little more time than it took when I...
Fell...