State of Mind

Don't tell me life is exactly how it was back then
That's funny talk, n' I ain't talking 'bout no damn accents
Ya'll must've forgot I ain't no dummy, shit is no crash test
Looking passed my past tense, and I'm getting paper like pamphlets

I was always taken care of, so I wouldn't say that I had less
Never went about an education, but now my talents can pay rent
Not too many can say that, never would've thought about this life way back
Now I got a kid, I gotta hustle ASAP
Took the high road said fuck the wrong path
Couple of my old friends smokin' that crack
All I really is need is my bro and that's facts
Cooking up a beat and now we laying down the tracks
Lemme take a hater I can, I can lay em out flat (Flat!)
Maybe take 'em out back
Am I gettin' too hype? Do I relax?
If I settle down a little, I'ma probably relapse (Yeah)

I look at myself and I'm not the same (Not the same, yeah)
It was for the better, my life had to change
I don't know everything, but they keep telling me
Back in the day was committing those felonies
Pulling some shit, turned myself to an enemy
Then I woke up now it's all okay (Yeah)

These circles roundabout like day and night
So if you phony, then you pay the price
You take a gamble when you play with dice
Don't test my motherfucking patience, I ain't playin' nice
My whole persona changes late at night
If you don't focus then you wasting time
I double crossed myself then turned to Christ
There's no survivors with an olden broken State of Mind

Yeah, if it wasn't for my girl I would probably be a different person
Headed in the right direction and that's for certain
This was urgent, I was worse than most broken kids, but my life was serviced
It was worth it, life is perfect, not granted, I'm not deserving
I was hurting, all my demons came to the surface
Now they don't bother me like they used to
I'm on a different road with a different map
Got miles to go, when I'm all done do not follow me home
If you were not there to ride with me all the way, homie just stay

Taking a look at some of the people that used to be my in life so frequent
Now it's all changed, they in need of treatment
It's hard to believe that they gone off the deep end
Strong mother fuckers that have now been weakened
Every single weekday to them is a weekend
I don't get fucked up unless there's a reason
They can keep it up, they wanna end their breathing

I don't trust nobody that'll stab you the back even though you got a past
I shouldn't have to look over my shoulder, just because you chemically imbalanced
This is why I'm glad that I got away from all addicts
Keep all of my old shit in the fuckin' attic
Couple harsh words, but you gotta understand it
If you were a daddy and you had a baby daughter, then I'd hope you wouldn't have it (Nah)

These circles roundabout like day and night
So if you phony, then you pay the price
You take a gamble when you play with dice
Don't test my motherfucking patience, I ain't playin' nice
My whole persona changes late at night
If you don't focus then you wasting time
I double crossed myself then turned to Christ
There's no survivors with an olden broken State of Mind