​between violences (a late-night turnipfingers speculative)

[Verse 1]
Violence never seemed to mean
The dirty word people claimed it to be
Until I saw her take the mound
Her smile spreading fear around
With bat in hand, I took my stance
Refusing any backward glance
I stared her down in pure defiance
Inviting the incoming violence

[Chorus]
And she struck me, now I’m switching in and out of my
Daydreams, all the nightmares that I’ve tried to keep in-
Side me are pushing their way out
And the voices of the ones she’s taken happily ring
Joyless in my head as I miss my swing, guess my
Choice is somewhere between my violent past and my new team

[Verse 2]
The dugout calls me over, so I
Turn away from Hell, closing my eyes
The demons there aren’t half as bad
As the idol they brought back
But I feel assurance behind me
A whisper of of violence, supportive and guiding
And from up close that smile of fear
Away from the fans gives way to tears

[Chorus]
And she struck me, now I’m switching in and out of my
Daydreams, all the nightmares that I’ve tried to keep in-
Side me are pushing their way out
And the faces of the ones she took unwittingly come
Racing in my head as I see her crumble, guess my
Choice is somewhere between my violent past and my new team

[Bridge]
She always steps out on the field
And shows the whole world that she feels
Okay when she’s not okay
Her team’s the only ones who get to see
She’s breaking apart from all the pain she brings
Was this worth it? Is she worth it?

[Chorus]
Now she's struck me, now I’m switching in and out of my
Daydreams, all the nightmares that I’ve fought to keep in-
Side me are melting when I look into her eyes
And the fire of the ones she’s lost so brutally burns
Brighter in my heart as I see her fight, guess my
Choice is somewhere between my violent past and my new team

[Chorus]
And she struck me, now she's switching in and out of her
Home team, she’s staring down the god who’s cost her
Everything and refusing to back down
And the echoes of the ones that we’ve all lost begin to
Ring low through the mic as she disappears, guess my
Choice is somewhere between my violent past and the null team