Absent Love

I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love
I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love
Give me a second before I self-destruct
Lookin' at pictures on the gram, like this could've been us
You know me best, I'm not one to flaunt relationship
Me not postin' you on my social is what made you split
Not playin' victim but how do I court someone to be my wife
When her standards are dictated by a virtual life
Not to mention having to navigate your mood swings
Had me thinking about proposing with a mood ring
It's constant pressure, I was stressed out and fed up
Your steady need for reassurance depleted my cup
This aint about me trying to play the blame game
There are things about myself that I gotta change
When you look up the word stubborn I'm the definition
And when I feel that I've been slighted, it's my ammunition
So, if we take a shot at love it has to be legit
Now you know all the reasons why I didn't commit, this Absent Love, huh
I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love
I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love
Got back out here and I thought that I could handle it
Still dealing with that relationship my heart it took some damaging
That's why every time I get too close to these women I start scrambling
Physically I'm still there, but emotionally I'm vanishing
Maybe I'm falling victim to social media and how they glamorize it (Glamorize it)
Or I'm thinking way too much and over analyzing
Either way at the end of the day I'm self sabotaging
And I have to stand on that ain't no more camouflaging
The love you have and want to give is unconditional
I know you think I'd rather be stuck and out here miserable
(Humph) but trying my best to hurdle this impediment
I wanna settle down but not at that risk of settling
We talk about our vision, you don't have to take on mine
I just know our end goals truly ain't aligned
So when you asked to meet your family, baby I declined
If they start talking marriage with me, then I know that I'd be lying
Chasing that love life I'm still hoping
Got cozy way too fast and was too open
Cause you thinking ain't moved on and I'm still broken
I'm guessing now I know that's what you call absent love
I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love
I hate that it went wrong, I needed you in my life
When I aint invest it all, you're the one that paid the price
I'm not lonely, but I've had enough
I think it's time that we confront all this absent love