I Never Knew The Sound

This is not together living. My benefit at your expense. I was just some fair weather
Friend who fled for shelter as the storm set in
My memory of how it went, was a memory skewed to my defense. I took more and more from you until I begged and borrowed all that I could get
Damn my insatiable hunger. I ate myself sick before I was fed. It seems I had no clue of all
I’d had taken until it came time for me to pay my debt

As the blood of every minute pours through the
Arteries of years. I could barely hear you here through a life now reproduced
Like the burnt leaves of autumn, a world fades away. I couldn’t keep you here
Even though I begged you to stay. So, why not leave it for what it is
Why dig past the quills for the rodent within
Why not leave everything that hurts you too much
Alone to die in some hospital bed

This still deserves a whisper, a proclamation from the roofs, won’t god divide the
Water, or speak another truth. My words are slipping from me, I cannot make a sound
As that ever muffled drumming meets the quiet of the ground

March 31st or was it april 04th, I guess the date is
Inconsequential, but I know now for sure, that i’d taken you for granted for far too
Long, and everyone takes everything for granted until it’s gone

And I concede that some are far worse off than me
As I sit here with my bounty and healthy family
Ignoring phone calls from good friends I don’t have time for these days
And I lock the doors, and pull the shutters, and draw the shades

And I beg and borrow and never return, and I feed and siphon and i’m never going to
Learn, that you were none of my concern. Beg and borrow and never return, and I
Feed and siphon and i’m never going to learn, that i’m the only one who is of any of my
Concern, and i’ll wear my guilt like an albatross around my neck