Overboard

My heart can't feel the same it hurts so fucking bad
Can't blame you for being mad at me my dear
Cause I knew it quick that you fell
Way too fucking fast
And I hate that I never could be the one there
So though I know I'm over it
Are you
Cause I can't sleep at all
Thinking how I'm wrong
Don't listen to a word I say
Cause it can't ever be the same
And nothings real I'm panicking
The reason why I feel like shit
Throw me overboard
Sorry I feel this way I can't change nothing now
I think sometimes that it's way more about me
Cause you wanted me and I wanted anything else
So what the hell is so wrong with me
Cause In my heart is cardiac and my brain wants to attack
And I wish that I could tell you I know that I love you back
But I can't and I tried
Like 100 different times to lie to myself before I go to sleep at night
And every time I try it always feels like cyanide
And it makes me really wonder if I a really wanna die
If I lie if I try even if I fucking cry
Just trying to go to sleep at night
Don't listen to a word I say
Cause it can't ever be the same
And nothings real I'm panicking
The reason why I feel like shit
Throw me overboard
Cause your there no ones ever been
And I can't sleep at all
And I hate how I don't feel the same
And none of it is your fault
I swear to god I'm sorry
That it had to go this way
I wish that there was something I could
Cause it seems like no matter what I do or what I say
In my heart I know I couldn't fall for you