Hover

I don't know why I put myself here
Saying I'll leave in front of the mirror
Practicing my whole speech
About how you smother me
Saying, "I want to be free",
When I know I won't
Say shit whenever you're near...

Broken kids make broken people
You should've known better
But then again who'd've taught you
Whatever the fuck is better
Maybe I can write a song,
Send it to you as a letter
Maybe then you'd understand
Why I hate that Christmas sweater

Deep down I don't blame you
It's just like you to hover
Deep down I don't hate you
I just wish I was a better brother
Wish I met your expectations
In too deep of my own indignation
I can't help but think that you were right
But the suffocation made me choke
Each and every night I spent at home

(Each and every night I spent at home) x2

I don't know how I got myself here
I thought I was a good kid
Now I don't recognize who's in the mirror
Or what it is that I did
Practicing my whole speech
Say, "you need to help me",
Begging for you to cut me free from this
When I know
I won't say shit whenever you're near.

Broken hearts make broken teens and,
You should've known better
But then again how would you know
I was breaking by the pressure
Maybe I can write this song,
Send it to you as a letter
Maybe then you'd understand
Why I didn't know better.

Deep down I don't blame you
It's just like you to hover
Deep down I don't hate you
I just wish I was a better brother
Wish I met your expectations
In too deep of my own indignation
I can't help but think that you were right
But the suffocation made me choke
Each and every night I spent at home

Broken kids just break more people
I wish I'd known better
Then I could've calmed you down and
Promised you that I'd get better
I don't wanna sing this song
Or send it as a letter
'Cause you'd never even get that
You were piling on the pressure.

Your pride and smile make me feel numb
And I know it'll get rough
As soon as I do something dumb
I know that I'm not good enough

I fucking hate your expectations
I fucking hate your indignation
How dare I breathe without permission
How dare I speak with no condescension

How dare I fuck up and make mistakes
How dare I be not okay
How dare you make me fear your name
How dare you make me miss your face

Deep down I don't blame you x2
Deep down I don't hate you

Deep down I don't blame you
(Deep down I don't blame you)
Deep down I don't hate you
(Deep down I don't blame you)

I wish I were a better brother...
I wish you were a better mother.