Death Grip

When I'm alone I break
I grit my teeth and shake
It's more than I can take
The pain I'm forced to face
Free me from this fucking place
I can't take the way I'm feeling today
I got a lot I could say
But no one ever listens anyway
Since I remember I was sick and afraid
Depressed, on edge, and ashamed
Out on a ledge and nothing ever changed
Every seconds like I'm walking on glass
Its an impossible task
I wear a mask so no one ever asks
How I'm feeling, if I'm doing okay
Nobody's hearing my claims
They close their eyes or look the other way
Separate from the pain that I perpetuate
Concentrate on everything I loved but learned to hate
Its more than I can take, reality's too much to face
When I'm alone I break, Free me from this fucking place
Misery controls me
Why won't you console me
No ones here to hold me
Life has left me lonely
I'm nothing more than just a ghost of the past
A string of memories collected scattered out like the ashes
Of every person that I've loved and lost too young or too fast
So every night I kneel and pray just to ask
Let me forget about everything
I'd give anything
To feel nothing at all
I fell victim to the self seeking
People I perceived as well meaning
I don't know where it all went wrong
It's gone on far too long
I can't shake the way I'm feeling today
I got a lot I could say
But no one ever listens anyway
Since I remember I was sick and afraid
Depressed, on edge, and ashamed
Out on a ledge and nothing ever changed
So I just want to forget
But can't forgive shit
Ball me up and fucking throw me away
Cos no one stays
Nothing's changed
Guess it doesn't matter anyway
If it did I wouldn't be in this place
With these suicidal thoughts and a mask on my face
All I know is despite my persistence
From my perspective every angle of this pictures warped and twisted
I fought so hard to survive, I'm alive, but just existing while I wait to die
It's time to say goodbye
So fucking say goodbye to me