On My Side

It’s all the same to me
Another night too numb to try
Hating everything
When I’m afraid to go outside

If it’s all the same to you
I wanna wake up by your side
Nothing feels real
You’re the closest I can find

All the times that I have tried
To keep my head on straight this time
The things my friends and family say
Like, “hey Dylan we love you; of course we love you.”

I cannot relate
That’s the excuse that I have made
But it’s all shit you see right through
With that look in your eyes I’m saved

And I cannot be held to blame
For the ways that I can't change
The ways I’ll never change…
I cannot be held afloat
By a love I do not know
It's a love I’ll never know…

Do you sleep better now?
With better pills and a stable man?
Will he whisper Catherine in your ear
As you’re falling asleep in our bed?
Can you sleep better now?
With better pills and a stable man?
Will he whisper Catherine in your ear
As you’re falling asleep in our bed?

Because we cannot be held to blame
For giving up on change
We’ll never change our ways
And that’s okay